I saw the Chronicles of Narnia with my mom today. So fantastic! There were places where I was like "noo, it's not supposed to be like that!" but that's to be expected. Overall, it was soo well done. They captured the feeling of the movie so well, i loved it! And the boy who played Edmund was so good. He really knew what he was doing and the internal struggle within Edmund. Bravo! And it was just accurate, it seemed. I haven't read the book in a while, so i didn't remember the details, but the movie really seemed right. Harry Potter was supposed to be like that. It's just so tragic how they ruined it so much.


I have this really irrational admiration for people, but realy men, who smoke cigarettes. I know it's terribly bad for the body, and they'll die from lung cancer with no hair in the end. But they just are so damn sexy. I can't help it. I tried to start smoking, but it just didn't work. It was disgusting, and I couldn't inhale the smoke. So now my admiration for smokers is even stronger. It's now not only that they look good, but also that they're doing something I can't do. I mean isn't there something really hip and sexy and mature-ish about guys who smoke really minor brands in somewhere sketchy like a pub? Urgh. I feel silly, but I can't help myself.

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OH MY GOD, I'm so fucking depressed. I'm sick of being home. I have nothing to do. There's no one to talk to except my family and the special J's. I call eveyone but they're all so damn busy, and here I am sitting before my computer, being absolutely bored out of my mind. Even Jason is busy! That just leaves me with my mom and Jumphreys! This is ridiculous. And now I can't get a license because I left my ID in Portland, and it really was the only reason for coming home this winter. FUCK IT! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. Seriously, I really, really can't take this anymore. But I can't do anything about it without costing so much money, and I can't do that. And I can't drive and don't have a car and can't go anywhere. FUCK.

the Rose Bowl

I watched the football game. ME, I did. This is quite an event; I, who has irrational fear of football players, not only watched it, but enjoyed it! It actually a very exciting game. They were so close, and the last five minutes was very exciting.


If I want to go to grad school for archtecture, I have to take physics and calc. I will take intro to anthro next year, but it turns out that I hate that subject, I don't know what I'm going to do. I won't have much space in my schedule to explore other disciplines since both calc and phys are year-long courses. And there are so many classes I should and want to take before I graduate. I should take econ and stats and art (if I want to go to architecture school), and I want to take classes in English, religion, maybe philosophy. And I don't even know if I want to do architecture, and it would be so sad if I decide I don't after taking those classes and stressing over them so much. ahhh. so much to do, so little time. I also wanted to go to Japan for a semester, but it looks like I just won't have time for that unless I take a semester off, but that would cost too much. Damn it.


We had these really nice headphones at home, but no one was really using tehm since they were huge and about 10 years old. I tried listening to my ipod with them and they were just amazing. It just made music so much more fun to listen to. Since I can hear the details, I actually understand what the lyrics are. It's amazing! I used to think the people walking around with those huge headphones were kind of silly-looking, but hell yeah, i'm becoming one of them!

urgh. stupid quizzes

so i know they're stupid. but i don't need all them tell me that i'm quirky and "sexy" in a really interesting way. I know I'm weird and not sexy. I can do cute, but definitely not sexy. i mean it's cool, i don't think i can handle it if i actually became "sexy". But when i take like ten quizzes in a row about "what kind of hat/sexy/vibe/girlfriend/naughty/flower are you?" and they all basically tell me the same thing, i start to wonder... WTF??


I miss shooting pictures. I used to go on excursions with Mr. Butera to Chinatown and I miss them so much. I basically haven't done any real shooting since last June. The thing is, when you go shoot pictures, it's really different from casual taking pictures of your friends and such. At least, it is for me. It takes a lot for me to be bold, just go up to people, and wham. Those are the pictures I like, the bold, city photos. Plus, I can't think of any part of Portland where there are a lot of people walking constantly up and down the street. And I'm not used to shooting all by myself, and I haven't been able to just get my butt up for this. I miss Boston and I miss Mr. Butera.

the little quizzes

those things that people seem to do a lot on live journal look so much fun. i must try it.

In 2005 I...
{ } broke a promise
{x} made new best friends
{ } fell in love
{x} fell out of love
{ } did something you swore never to do
{x} lied
{ } stole
{x} went behind your parents back
{x} cried over a broken heart
{ } attempted suicide
{ } disappointed someone close
{x} hid a secret
{ } had a family friend/relative die
{x} pretended to be happy
{ } got arrested
{ } killed someone
{ } hurt someone
{ } kissed in the rain
{ } slept under the stars
{x} hooked up with someone you weren't in a relationship with

{ } had a birthday that sucked
{ } found your soulmate
{x} ate until you thought you would explode
{ } kept your new years resolution
{ } forgot your new years resolution
{ } met someone who changed your life
{ } met one of your idols
{x} changed your outlook on life
{x} sat home all day doing nothing
{x} pretended to be sick
{x} loved him/her knowing they didn't love you back
{x} left the country
{ } went to a broadway show
{ } almost died
{x} gave up something important to you
{ } lost something expensive

{x} learned something new about yourself
{x} went "further" with him/her than you had with anyone else
{x} tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
{x} made a change in your life
{ } drunk-dialed someone
{x} found out who your true friends were.
{x} made a total fool of yourself
{ } lost your job - well...quit.
{ } stayed on the phone for more than two hours
{x} met great people
{ } went to NYC
{ } changed your major
{ } spent over 24 hours in your pajamas
{ } got addicted to myspace
{ } thought he/she was the love of your life
{ } got in a car accident
{ } fell in love with a teacher at school
{ } broke a bone
{ } went to the ER or you were admitted to the hospital
{ } gave up on love.
{x} nearly died of laughter

thse things are fun!